Almost every morning begins with my workout. These last few weeks suffering from a head/chest cold and coming off three weeks of hosting parties it’s been hit or miss.
One of my favorite parts of my workout is going to it, or leaving because I get to see the moon and fading stars (or planets) and the start of the sunrise. The sight energizes me!
You think your words are just teasing but they feel like pebbles hitting my heart, a little pointy knife poking, poking, poking. They connect when I least expect it. They chip away at my being and I can’t be near you.
Maybe I’m too nice. I want love and kind words whether we’re alone or in a crowd. I want you to feel love and hear kind words.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t even know you.
Later….. there’s something about being outside. I feel so confined inside. On weekends when I was a teenager and dateless, I would take a walk at night and just walk and think. It was so peaceful. These days I just sit on our porch or out by the garden reading or I just close my eyes and drift off.
Do you believe your family members that have passed watch over you? I do! Do you know you also have guides you’ve never met before? Well, you do, and I found out about mine a few years ago….
I was at a Psychic Fair at Locket’s Meadow in Bethany in August of 2019. I found myself in front of a woman, Risa Rodgers. She started talking about the spirits with me and I’m glad she wrote as she talked.
My first guide’s name is Danny – he’s my fun guide. That is one re-occuring theme in my life – the need to have fun! He says to just tell him what kind of sign you want to see. He’s been in some other life times and he wants me to laugh. He says that laughter is my best weapon.
Danny and my next guide both talk about something that comes up repeatedly — stand up for yourself and don’t let anyone “shit on our parade”. I find this interesting because who are they referring to?
Matilda is on my left side. I can’t find any significance to that anywhere, but maybe Danny is on my right side. Angel/devil? I didn’t know her and get this – she ran a saloon in the old west! THAT is something I could imagine myself doing! She has a heart of gold and is mouthy! She told me (again, this theme) – “you don’t give them enough shit when people try to hurt you”. She wants me to – be a broad; be tough.
And now – here’s someone I knew and loved – my grandmother Julia Ingram Posluszny! Now she was a fierce, independent woman! My Aunt Judy said Gram wore the pants in the family (actually I think she said Gram had the balls in the family). Again, “Give it to them”. She also said I needed to bring color into my life, that there were too many neutrals! Start with some pillow she said – so I did!
Last but not least, this is the spirit I look to at night, to calm my mind and take away the “late night thinking” – a very old spirit who is manning a boat. He says to call him Fiji. He’ll take me away on inner journeys, I just need to ask him and he can take me all over the multiverse, he can take the boat (more like a pontoon!) anywhere.
Someday I will unpack the who in the “don’t put up with anyone’s shit”, but in the meantime, I will look to my guides for a laugh, for some guidance, and for a late night trip on a spirit’s pontoon boat.
I think about a lot of stuff all the time. Personal, work, what someone said to me 40 years ago and what I should have said. You get the picture.
I have a lot of time to think when I’m on the back of my husband’s motorcycle watching the world go by. It’s not my favorite way to spend an afternoon because it’s so passive. I’m sitting there. Like Rerun – Lucy and Linus’s little brother on the back of his mother’s bike. But usually the ride involves lunch or ice cream so I’m game.
So this is just my way of getting those thoughts out of my head and maybe a little bit of the view along the way.
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Thoughts From The Passenger Seat 