Tag: thoughts

Posted in 2023, family

Spirits Watching Over Us

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I’m always amazed at the way the spirits show themselves to me. Whether through a medium or expressing their presence directly to me.

717 is my special number because it’s the month and day our son was born. Whenever I see these numbers – especially on the oven clock! – I say “I see you my family!”, knowing that the spirits are with me.

Yesterday we were in the attic moving a heavy cedar chest away from the top of the stairs so the HVAC people could get up there and put their unit upstairs.

It’s bittersweet because we’re getting central air for our 2nd floor which gets incredibly HOT in the New England summers we have, but the money comes from the sale of my father-in-law’s home in California. He passed away in October and this was something we knew we needed in our home and in our son’s and daughter-in-law’s home.

After we moved the chest away, I saw a piece of paper on the floor where the chest had been. I picked it up, turned it over, and saw THIS and got chills. It’s my handwriting but that chest has been in that spot for about 5 years after the attic was cleaned out and insulation was put down on the floor!

There’s only one explanation – my father-in-law is acknowledging the 110+ temperatures we endured with him when we were there last August and he’s saying “I got you – you’re welcome”.

Posted in life

Perfectionism SUCKS

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I need things organized and tidy and set right in front of me before I can move on.

All that leads to is spending my weekend organizing and tidying up papers and books and magazines and doing the laundry and cleaning and weekday meal prep and workout before I move on to something that I think of doing during the week.

Write a post about a family member on my other site? Oh no, I need to organize their pictures (and where is that favorite picture? Oh here! Oh, and here’s one for that other person, let me organize all my pictures first!) and research the dates and find other nuggets before I can move on to write.

By Sunday night, I develop that same pit in my stomach and ache in my throat that I get on Friday afternoons at work when I think of “all the things I DIDN’T get done during the week”.

I don’t know how to turn that off……

I say every week I’m not going to let it happen – I even went grocery shopping on Thursday after work in order to have all day Saturday to myself and yet, here I am. Frustrated with me.

What a double edge sword! One half needs the organizing and the other half is like “Girl! Take care of yourself!”

Ok – off to finish the laundry.

Posted in 2022, life

My Day

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If I breathe out kindness, will I inhale kindness?

If I speak kind words to others (do I?), I need to be sure I do the same for myself.

Posted in 2022

My Outdoors

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I have been part of this view for over 60 years. Since we bought it from my father, technically it’s only had two owners. This tree was a peanut to the queen that stood where the red building is now. I sit here now and wonder why I don’t spend more time out here.

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Posted in 2022, life, Religion

Troubling Thoughts

Posted on by nancyb422

I’ve spent the last 2 years reading a daily bible verse or two accompanied by the author’s thoughts in “God’s Wisdom for Women” (or something similar). It usually sets me straight for my day.

Friday, June 24th, I read the verse from 1 Corinthians 14:33 that says, “God is not a God of disorder but of peace – -as in all the congregations of the Lord’s people.” This is the wording from the New International Version. Pretty simple, makes you feel good right?

Well, there are times I like to go to my bible and read more of the chapter and I was kind of shocked to read what followed in Verse 34-35: “Women should remain silent in the churches. They are not allowed to speak, but must be in submission, as the law says. If they want to inquire about something, they should ask their own husbands at home; for it is disgraceful for a woman to speak in the church.”

I think any type of good feeling disappeared at that moment! Such bullshit! This isn’t God’s word, these are words strung together by men to keep women then and now in their places. I believe in God, and I pray to God regularly, but that really shook me. I believe God wants all of us to have a voice and for those voices to be heard. But you know, people conveniently point to the bible when it suits them to say “see, right here in the bible” to their wives, children, friends, and congregations.

And then, ironically, Roe v. Wade was overturned that same afternoon. But that’s a story for another day.